Wednesday, January 23, 2008

01/23/2008

So the verse on the left for today struck me. I told my mom, yesterday, that sometimes I feel as though I am shutting down when things are going wrong and seem so hard. It's as if I just can't keep going--that there's no strength in me to handle one more piece of bad news or discouragement. The sad part about it is when you are in that state, or almost in that state, even the slightest little thing becomes this BIG thing and you can't handle it! It's stupid and annoying. I told her that I am not in a state of complaining but in a state of just feeling like I can't go on and can't make it... not because "it's not fair" but because I just don't see how it is going to get better and what can possibly happen that will make things be better...

BUT. I will bless the Lord at all times and will praise him continually... huh. Thinking on that today.

4 comments:

Jenn said...

Very pertinent for me today. Thank you for sharing.

I came via Green Cathedral. I have you bookmarked now.

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Emma said...

I'm with you on this one Natalie, Right now I'm in the process of restarting after being shut down.

Beth said...

I wish I was there and could give you a BIG hug

altacus said...

Best luck with you and this struggle.

In the words of "The Big Lebowski"
Sometimes you eat the bar. Sometimes the bar eats you.

Discouragement is a natural human response to events. Its a necessary response for humans to be healthy. The trick is not to stay stagnant in that state, but to identify the causes for your response and to attempt to change them so you can move beyond that state.

It's summed up in the follow Sikh prayer.
"Lord, give me the courage to change the things which can and
ought to be changed, the serenity to accept the things which
cannot be changed and the wisdom to know the difference."